It's Not About Me

Despite what I said yesterday, I'm trying my very best to recognize that today is not about me. It might be someday, but today, this year, it's not about me. So in light of that:

Jesus,

When my heart is hurting and my eyes are burning,

give me strength.

When my thoughts are full of envy, anger, and sorrow,

give me grace.

When I want to hide under the covers and sleep this day away,

let me be your hands.

When no one notices my pain, when no one shares my grief,

allow me to be a light.

Jesus, help me make this day, not about me, but all about you.

Radiate your love though me, because I am not big enough, 

strong enough, or good enough to do it without you.

That's my prayer today. My will alone will not see me through this day, so I'm asking Him to intervene and fill in the gaps where I fail. In the moments where my smiles are forced and my legs are weak, I'm asking Him to step in. I will see so many mothers today, and I do not want each conversation or glance to tear me apart inside… so I'm asking Him to fill me up today with love, peace, patience, and a whole lot of grace.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mommas out there. May you feel loved today.

A special Happy Mother's Day to my momma (the greatest) and both of my mothers-in-law! 

And to my friends with heavy hearts and empty arms: I am abiding with you today. I carry you all heavy on my heart. BIG HUGS!!