Clomid- Round 2

The roller coaster continues and that's really all I can say. I'm in a funk tonight wishing I could snuggle with my husband and unload all my heartache to him, but he's off to bible study. And honestly, I wouldn't anyway. It doesn't help. He is emotionally unable to provide what I'm looking for in these darkest hours (no fault of his own, I doubt any man can). I guess it is partially due to his maleness, partially his personality, and partially that he is sick of the whole TTC process. What I really need is a friend to go through this with me. I don't even have to know the person, it could be a faceless person across the country. I just need someone to talk to who really understands.

But I'm trying to stay as hopeful as I can. I start round 2 of Clomid tonight, which means the wicked witch of the west is moving in to my house for the next week or so. I'm upping the dose from 100mg to 150mg. The doctor is hoping that this will move my ovulation day up. I just want to be in the "normal range" this month... under 18 days.

I'm also thinking about taking up yoga. The doctor gave me the all clear as long as I stick to gentle stretching. Maybe yoga would help me deal with the overload of stress from this whole process and get rid of some of the weight that I've tacked on that I can only blame on moodiness and a sedentary lifestyle.

Well that's it for tonight... If I continue on I will only convince my readers of a bleak outlook on life as I throw myself another pity party. Here's to hoping that 150mg kicks my ovaries into high gear (but not overdrive) and that the husband still wants to baby dance!